I was watching Barbara Walter’s 20 Most Fascinating People the other night (didn’t she say last year was her “last” year?). I had no plans to watch it but as I was flipping through the channels, I saw Oprah and wanted to hear what she had to say. What came out of her mouth made me a little sad but also caused me to reflect on my own journey.
When asked what is the one thing she wants to do before she leaves this earth, I expected her to say something like save all the children in Africa, or put a book in the hands of every kid in the U.S. Instead, what she said shook me to my core. Why? Because it is something I would have said, and have heard countless people say to me over the last 18 months. Oprah said she wants to make peace with her weight. What? Seriously?
So, let me get this straight. You can buy anything in the world, you have access to chefs, trainers, assistants, etc. and the one thing you want to do is not beat yourself up daily because you weigh more than what you feel is ideal. I TOTALLY get this! It broke my heart just a little. But also related to her on a human and woman to woman level. Oprah was suddenly a friend in my head.
I hate that so many of us are at a point in our life where thinking about our weight consumes our day. I often wonder how many times a day I adjust my waistband and think, “ugh, I hate my stomach” or I pass by a mirror and see how full my face is and wish my jawline was more defined. It is such a normal thing for me, I bet I couldn’t even count.
As January 1 approaches, so many people will make the resolution to lose weight and regain their health. I wonder if Oprah will say the same? She says she doesn’t make New Year’s resolutions, but deep down I bet she is praying for the answer to a size 8 pair of pants. Come on O, admit it! I secretly pray that this will be the year I hit my goal weight/size. I know that I have made HUGE strides over the last 18 months. I have dropped 3 pant sizes and my health is the best it has been in 15 years. But the road ahead seems to never end. And maybe that is a good thing. I don’t know that your journey to weight loss and health ever truly ends. Maybe I need to focus more on the road I am traveling instead of the destination. Maybe my resolution this year should be to stop beating myself up 100 times a day because of my waist band, what I see in the mirror or the fact that my jeans seem to wear out in the inner thigh area first. Don’t act like this doesn’t happen to you if you have curvy thighs!
The one thing I know for sure (am I allowed to say that without Oprah suing me?), is that if tomorrow were my last day on earth, I would not want my unfinished business to include worrying about my weight. So, I will put one foot in front of the other and continue on this journey. I will avoid the fast food restaurants along the way, and try to walk that road instead of driving (burns more calories). But above all, I will declare 2015 as a year of journeys not destinations. I think that is something we should all focus on a little more.
Here’s to the Journey.